Love- A word that has been an inspiration for all the philosophers and poets, a journey that everyone voyages and everyone’s voyage has a different route, experience and destination. One such voyage is of mine
The first time I met Addi was at our college bus stop. She wasn't ‘love at first sight’ kind of girl but there was something magnetic in her which did attract me. May be it was her innocence, may be it was her smile. Since we were in the same college it was obvious for us to be friends. My friendship with her did not click from the word go. For me she was just another girl in my friend’s list but we used to call each other very frequently. Got to know that she was originally from Delhi and had come to Mumbai at her aunt’s place for studies. Kept on meeting her in college kept on chatting with her on the phone. She was an introvert and used to speak very less. Over the years our friendship grew and I was completely mesmerized by her. She was such a great company to be with. She helped me to identify my strengths, my talents and because of her the spark in me was always remarkable. She was the girl respected, honoured and adored not only by me but by everyone who knew her. She was well organised, well planned and a great implementer. It was indeed a great honour for me to be her friend. I loved everything about her. Couldn’t imagine a single day without her. She was a great friend to be with and one fine day I realised that love had come between our friendship. The following day I went up to her to share my feelings. It took time for her to answer me but luckily the answer was positive.
I was never so dead serious about anything as I was with my relationship with her. It was such a lovely feeling to be in love and that to with a girl of your choice. She had clearly mentioned that she was not going make commitments for the future and I was ok with it. Nobody in the college knew about our relationship except few of our close friends. It was completely her decision to do so and I had to obey her order. I liked the way she dominated me. She always used to remind me of my good old school days, just as my teachers used to scold me to complete my work. I was enjoying every part of my relationship. But life is not always a cradle of joy.
Addi was done with her last year of exams and the time had come to return to her family. I knew this was coming but was afraid of facing it. What really made me tensed was that she was not going to comeback since her family needed her more than me. I couldn’t force her. I clearly remember it was 2nd of June, her last day with me and I wanted to make best use of it. With my hard earned money I bought a gold ring for her. I wanted to make her most memorable day. We went to a coffee shop where I decided to gift her. Since it was Sunday, the whole shop was crowded. I was nervous. As we were about to leave I went down my knees and asked her can I wait for you? Tears started to roll down her cheeks. She did not speak since I had put her in an awkward situation. She had declined my ring. I kept on asking her why but the only answer I got was her tears. The next day I went to the station to drop her. She did not speak a word, neither did I feel comfortable though my silence kept on asking many questions. The train gave its final horn and for the last time I hugged her. I wanted to remain in her arms all my life but it was time to say goodbye. She promised to call me and got into the train. I waited till the train disappeared from my sight. The first few days she did not call me. I tried calling her but her phone was switched off. Day by day I was getting restless. I was dying to speak to her. Days turned into months, months turned into years. Today It’s been three years and I am still waiting only for the fact that I know she loves me, loves me a lot.
